I have been "diagnosed" with PND. I should be happy to finally have a diagnosis, but instead it makes it worse. I am more angry, more upset and more frustrated than I was before.
I keep thinking "Why wasn't this picked up earlier? How the heck can a doctor say I was borderline for PND in November while the counselor I'm seeing tells me that I have had it since my son was born in December 2008?
How the heck does this happen? I am angry with the doctor, frustrated with my counselor for pushing me to take antidepressants, and upset because now it's official, I have Post Natal Depression.
I'm over it.
I need a break.
A holiday... without kids, without the hubby. Just some time for me and only me, where I can relax and not have to worry about the kids, or listen to them scream, yell, cry, or watch them hit each other - with fists or toys - where I don't have to change and wash nappies all day every day, or give them food/breastfeed constantly. A holiday where I am alone and no one is relying on me.
That would be the ideal, but it won't happen. In just under 2 months I will be flying up to Queensland with all 3 kids and leaving hubby at home for a whole month.
Hubby owes me big time for this!
That is all.
Tuesday 19 March 2013
Friday 8 March 2013
Bad Luck Is Following Us...
Again I have been slack in my blogging, I just really haven't had the mental energy to do it.
Bad luck has been our companion lately, first Matt got a thigh length blood clot in his leg the day after he had his surgery to have his gallbladder removed and was readmitted to hospital for the rest of that day, then released with home visits from the nurses for treatment with clexane injections.
After 2 weeks the clexane hadn't worked so he was put on warfarin as well.
He has been off work for over a month now, and we are really starting to struggle financially.
It is starting to clear up now but it gave us all a huge scare.
On sunday he starts back at work again which is a huge relief.
During this time I also had the mother of all migraines and had to go to hospital where they suspected that I had meningitis, luckily I didn't, but I did find out that I have had a chronic sinus infection since Christmas Eve 2012 when the migraines started. Since being treated with antibiotics my migraines have gone and I now only have occasional headaches, which is so much better than it was before.
Last week Emily also got sick again with conjunctivitis and the flu and needed antibiotic ointment for the conjunctivitis but she had a reaction to it, it made her eyes all puffy and red, so we had to stop it, and on Tuesday just gone we went to get her immunisations done as she is overdue for them but we couldn't as she had a non asthma wheeze and congestion in her lungs and was put on antibiotics again - this time a different type - my poor baby hasn't have much luck healthwise this year :( The congestion and wheeze in her lungs are now gone and she will be getting her immunisations next Tuesday as long as nothing else comes up between now and then.
And the other day not only did my glasses break, but the front windscreen of my car cracked as well!
So things haven't been very good, hopefully they get better now, it would be nice as I've had to put off my final 2 lessons with the driving instructor, I was hoping to be preparing to get my P plates by the end of next week but now it won't happen until early next month and I have to see a client at the end of April (we met for the first time on February 25th), so I really need to have them by then.
The only really good thing to happen is that I now have my own ABN and can run my hobby and work as a Doula and run both things as real businesses, which is great!
The other thing we have done recently is help out a mate who was homeless and had been living on the streets, sleeping on park benches and concrete footpaths, for almost a month with hardly any food, so we took him in for a couple of days, fed him, gave him some clean clothes and washed his clothes, let him use our shower and then helped him find a place to stay. He was so grateful and it was so nice to see a smile on his face again even though he was crying (tears of joy). He is now living in a caravan park and can see his partner and kids again which is wonderful for them all.
Anyway, that is all for now.
Until next time, Jen.
Bad luck has been our companion lately, first Matt got a thigh length blood clot in his leg the day after he had his surgery to have his gallbladder removed and was readmitted to hospital for the rest of that day, then released with home visits from the nurses for treatment with clexane injections.
After 2 weeks the clexane hadn't worked so he was put on warfarin as well.
He has been off work for over a month now, and we are really starting to struggle financially.
It is starting to clear up now but it gave us all a huge scare.
On sunday he starts back at work again which is a huge relief.
During this time I also had the mother of all migraines and had to go to hospital where they suspected that I had meningitis, luckily I didn't, but I did find out that I have had a chronic sinus infection since Christmas Eve 2012 when the migraines started. Since being treated with antibiotics my migraines have gone and I now only have occasional headaches, which is so much better than it was before.
Last week Emily also got sick again with conjunctivitis and the flu and needed antibiotic ointment for the conjunctivitis but she had a reaction to it, it made her eyes all puffy and red, so we had to stop it, and on Tuesday just gone we went to get her immunisations done as she is overdue for them but we couldn't as she had a non asthma wheeze and congestion in her lungs and was put on antibiotics again - this time a different type - my poor baby hasn't have much luck healthwise this year :( The congestion and wheeze in her lungs are now gone and she will be getting her immunisations next Tuesday as long as nothing else comes up between now and then.
And the other day not only did my glasses break, but the front windscreen of my car cracked as well!
So things haven't been very good, hopefully they get better now, it would be nice as I've had to put off my final 2 lessons with the driving instructor, I was hoping to be preparing to get my P plates by the end of next week but now it won't happen until early next month and I have to see a client at the end of April (we met for the first time on February 25th), so I really need to have them by then.
The only really good thing to happen is that I now have my own ABN and can run my hobby and work as a Doula and run both things as real businesses, which is great!
The other thing we have done recently is help out a mate who was homeless and had been living on the streets, sleeping on park benches and concrete footpaths, for almost a month with hardly any food, so we took him in for a couple of days, fed him, gave him some clean clothes and washed his clothes, let him use our shower and then helped him find a place to stay. He was so grateful and it was so nice to see a smile on his face again even though he was crying (tears of joy). He is now living in a caravan park and can see his partner and kids again which is wonderful for them all.
Anyway, that is all for now.
Until next time, Jen.
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